I appreciate the things in my life that help me grow. Although this home-based business very much consolidates so much of our past and our present details into an exciting and ideal opportunity, this doesn't mean it has been an easy four months. Personally, as a wife and mom alone, my life's plate is pretty full. Add my call and passion to serve as a MOPS Coach...as well as everything else about regular life...and my plate is quite full. Still, from the start, I have known this business opportunity was something the Lord has given both Ben and I.
So, after falling in love with what we learned at training in March (as so much of it parallels to my MOPS Leadership experience), I spent the next three months trying to figure out how I fit into our business picture. We both knew I'd have the lesser responsibility, but still...what did that need to look like? We knew it would include my strengths - organization, planning, and connecting - but how?? Because of what ministry has looked like for me through the years, I have become very comfortable with getting in front of people to share my heart. As such, meeting with clients is not something I felt the need to shy away from. My stumbling block to using all of my natural and acquired strengths for this business opportunity was, I thought, time.
Well, a couple of weeks ago, after we hit an extended sales slump, God began to help me see. It started as I woke up one Monday morning with a new zeal to reach our business goal! With that zeal came new eyes...eyes to see my time, my life, my kids. I began to see that I could stop at the businesses I had mentally targeted while on our drive home from gymnastics practice; that my kids were resourceful enough to help in our family's initial sacrifice by waiting in the car for a while while I stopped-in to visit with a few business owners. So, I did...and they did. Still, I knew I was limited to how often I could make those stops. I and they have responsibilities in our home to get to. That's when a funny thing began to occur...
One afternoon as I stood on a ladder in my front yard with a hedge trimmer in hand, I knew the smaller details of our landscaping were something I needed to get to. The hot afternoon sun beat on my body as I trimmed our bushes back into shape. As I did, a conviction arose within my heart and I prayed, "Lord, even in this, I am sowing into our business." A couple days later, as I made a bed, I felt the temptation to become discouraged with a lack of time to do more to help Ben that day. Just then, the now familiar conviction arose within my heart again and I told my Father, "Even in this, Lord, I am sowing into our business! These are things I must take care of for our family, Lord; I will trust you to translate it into dividends seen through the business You have lead us to." Well, wouldn't you know it, the doors began to open and within a couple weeks we reached the midway point to our goal!! And now, just a few days after attending our second business conference together, I can see my next steps more clearly.
Over the last several weeks, I have slowly begun to break free from my stuck place; and have begun to slowly find my place in our new endeavor. Overall, I have learned that true success is more than giving my best. It is allowing myself to be pushed past what I think is my best, to a little past my comfort zone. It is trusting the Lord to do through me what I know I am practically incapable of doing....sowing like crazy into His clear direction for my life - without worry for the results - because, thankfully, He is the sovereign Lord the of the increase...*sigh*.